How is this even possible? I am a stay at home mommy & I spend day in & day out with these handsome little nuggets who I am so blessed to call my own. They push me to my absolute limit. As much as I love them, they're downright exhausting. And here I am, laying in bed, sick as a dog, missing them while they are right downstairs. While in the moment of chaos with two little ones, the constant thought in your head is, "I just need a break!". One night in a hotel with room service, someone to clean up your mess, & precious silence. I am so positively sure that the entire time I spent in that said hotel room, I'd be missing my boys, turning the television on to mask the sound of quiet. Not only that, I'd be cleaning my own mess (I can thank the OCD for that).
Jude keeps popping in my room to say, "Mommy, I'm sorry you're sick & I love you. Here's batman to make you feel better." {little does he know, a little batman would make me feel MUCH better} But my little Declan has stayed downstairs with daddy most of the day so I just want to hold him & kiss those chubby cheeks!
I'm aware that I can't be with my babies every second & sometimes, I do need a day or even a half a day to recover but thinking that I will never get this day back makes my heart a little sad. I'm missing bath time as we speak & seeing the boys interact with each other is what I live for! Tonight, I will enjoy hearing their little voices and the pitter patter of feet around the house from this bed & I will start tomorrow loving all over my baby boys.
StayLovely.
aw:) I want babies.
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